Thursday, April 22, 2010

One Awesome Weekend :)

So its come about that time again...the one I dread like the plage and can't wait to be done with, CHEMO. However, after this treatment I will only have 1 TREATMENT LEFT TO GO.  I have to admit this past few weeks since my last treatment have done me well and the thought of not feeling well again....is scary but I know a necessary part of my journey.  This past weekend I was able to go to the Women's Wellness Retreat where i met so many incredible women and I wish I could share all of their stories with you.  There is something so special about talking with someone who has been through cancer, they understand like no one else can.  The retreat was filled with women of all ages with all trypes of cancer.  We had a disco party the last night where I actually WORE  A WIG for the first time EVER!  Seeing myself with hair was actually shocking to me because like my friend Dawn said I would I have learned to embrace my baldness as a part of me....sometimes I forget what it was like to actually have hair but I know the time will come when I will find it hard to imagine a time when I didn't have hair.  So for now I am trying to embrace this time and pray and see how God will use me in this journey to help others.  The last morning of our trip we had a speaker who was probably one of the funniest people I have ever listened to and he gave a great piece of advice...he said "The greatest emotion we can ever experience is Gratitiude".  WOW....that couldn't be more true and somtime I find it sad that many experience true gratitude for everyday things we take for granted only after a illness.  I can admit that I have never enjoyed life more than I am now because I now know what its like to not be able to do the things you used to be able to do no matter how much you want to.  I also got to room with an amazing girl named Stephanie who taught me so much this weekend and is truly an inspiration to young survivors everywhere :)  Hope you enjoy the slide show....